I dream of being a genuine, vulnerable leader. Leadership is good, but too often we have a kind of class system of "leaders" and "everybody else". No more! The leadership "class" can fake spirituality, lead because they're paid to, insist on being treated better, take advantage of their position, keep up appearances. No more! No room for "smooth", glossy, professional (in the wrong sense), "me up here, you down there", "I'm sorted now I can help you" leaders.
Instead ... to dare to be seen for who we are, as pilgrims on the way, sometimes surprised to find ourselves out front leading because we know ourselves well, constantly in need of God's grace, and daring to let ourselves be on display as a worked example of that grace in action, and YET not afraid to give a strong lead when needed, not afraid to speak boldly when called, not afraid to let the power of God work through us when prompted, not afraid to confront in love, not afraid to endure the loneliness of costly decisions ...
Is this possible? I believe so ... It's a dream that scares me, but it won't go away!
"We are called to intentional, deliberate vulnerability."
(from the Rule of the Northumbria Community)
"Ring the bells that still can ring
Forget your perfect offering
There is a crack in everything
That's how the light gets in."
(Leonard Cohen: "Anthem")
I dream of a church that strives for visible genuineness. Church with glass walls, or no walls - so that if it's real, people will see ... if it's fake, people will see.
Perfect example here - Bishop John Sentamu living rough for a week in York Cathedral, to pray for the Middle East, and having many significant encounters as he does so.
"Come on, bring a noise, let the woooorrrrld know we're around, how we get on, how we get down."
(MC Conrad - from a Drum'n'Bass DJ set with LTJ Bukem)
All of this "My Dream" stuff has been a kind of Martin Luther King moment - like a glimpse of the Promised Land - it's a scary, costly dream and I don't know if we'll get there, but it's where I wanna go and take others with me.
I subtitled my blog "In relentless pursuit of REAL" and I reaffirm this today! If I have to perform, or fake it to do what I do, I will leave and do something else.